remind myself..... (and an advice to everyone too i hope)

haiz.. whenever ppl or rather couples, husband n wife etc quarrel, i tend to get affected too.. whenever such things happen, i always have these ques in mind.....

why must quarrel..
why is it tt when they start to noe each other, when they were in their honeymoon period it can be so sweet, everythin can turn out so well??

i always tink abt this n i hope i can reflect n do the same thing if the time comes.. i wan myself to rem wad i wana tell every other ppl..

i hope ppl can rem y did they fall in love with each other.. wad is it tt make them so happy when they first got together.. y cant tt feeling last??

i wana make myself always rem tt feeling n tink abt all those sweet memories.. to avoid conflicts, i wan myself to not noe too much coz i noe knowin too much is nt a bless.. i wan myself nt to focus so much on money coz i noe its the evil cause for everythin.. i wan to live each day happily with no worries..

i hope i can do it!! jia you!!

What is going on?!

ohh.. a long time since i came back here..

Just this one week itself, I lost 2 pairs of my slippers!! One at my bf's house, the other at my house!! N its only mine tts gone!! May I know who is so free?! There are really ppl who have so much time to spend on causing trouble to others..

OK, enough of my frustration, there are happy moments this week too.. I organised a mini lantern festival gathering with my TKD club ppl n we (i hope) had so much fun.. I am very touched by all of them. I felt so glad tt EVERYONE participated actively in the games i organised.. N THANK YOU JASON, Alan n Sean for the chicken rice treat.. Congrats to Jason for clinching the 3rd prize for the SIMply YOU talent show.. at least Felicia n my slipper didnt got worn-out for nothin.. haha..

Also, my sis, my cousins n i went Singapore Flyer!! It was quite fun especially to see my cousin so scare tt she dun dare to move abt.. haha..

oh ya.. i graduated too!! haha.. but till now i haven find work..

wad a damn day!!

I AM SO DISGUSTED BY WAD YOUNGSTERS DO TODAY and wonder wad went wrong in the family upbringing of them!! i dun blame schs coz i feel tt its the parents fault or rather the youngsters fault for not being brought up well.. where is their manners?! they are simply too free!!

alright my story goes like this:

i was walkin past the void deck n saw a bunch of youngsters, abt 7 of them, 2 in sch uniform (white top and blue bottom), which i suspect are students frm FIRST TOA PAYOH sec sch as its in toa payoh area. as i walk pass them, i heard somethin droppin beside mi n i later realised it was actually a raw egg which the ill-mannered youngsters used to hit at me.. i was lucky as i walked fast enough.. i stared at them.. i was alone, without any hp.. they pretend to do their own things, later looked at me and laugh!! if u've got the guts, own up for the things u do!! COWARDS!!

i went home n called the police and went down again but they were gone!! i was definitely annoyed by it!! i swear i would confront them the next time i see them.. as i noe they live ard this area, hang ard dis area in a big gang, creates lots of noise, they are sure to invite more trouble witht he AA(attract attention) nature..

too bad.. my bf thinks im makin a big fuss over it.. but im sure im not gona let them off if tt egg reali hit mi.. anyway they better pray to god tt i dun meet them.. if not, i will mkae sure they have a suffering future.. anyway, they will..

the lesson i've learnt here is to always have my hp with mi so tt in case of any emergency, i could call for help..

oso, how i wish i could form a gang, but a good gang tt only help ppl, stand up for rights n justice n not a gang of bo liaoz ppl, bullying ppl, wastin their life, wastin resources.. in the past, ah beng n ah lian were meant to be helpful etc like wad my mother have told me.. but im so disappointed tt these days, the youngsters so are action in their so-called ah beng, which is actually an insult to the ah bengs in the past..

maybe i will be fine when i wake up... anyway, hell to those who offended me!! especially the youngsters which i met today!! there shall be KARMA!! well im kind enough, lets make them suffer 10 times worse will do.. =)

bf at reservist

hmm.. my bf went for reservist 1 week le.. 2 more weeks to go.. like so busy n not much time for each other.. well.. this is life.. hmm..

girl girl & boy boy

wow.. its been a long time since i make a return.. haha.. anyway, nothin much to say.. jus wana upload a few photos to record my memories..
Haha.. i manage to find this keychain as featured in tv, ch8 9pm show "switched", at amk hub, young generation.. $10.95.. so happy.. haha

well.. nothin new.. this is taken quite long ago.. but jus upload now.. its our ring.. hehe..

n this is my cute bf.. haha.. kei ai ma.. we went for NDP'07 rehearsal.. thanks to his bro..

Fun presentations.. =)

For last wk n this wk, i have been so busy with sch work n reali cant breathe.. no time to sleep too.. had marketing ppt, com242 ppt, ntr109 r.p., com300 ppt, com300 r.p., com125 ppt......... However, now:

After all the planting and sowing, we've gotten our fruits of achievement!!

The Cutey Princessy Cherries!!

Haha.. ok people, pls dun be disgusted by us.. This is our hardwork n effort k.. we sacrifice for our presentation ok.. okay, our topic was on media cultivation and so, from some of the research we have found, one way media has cultivated us into is the "act cute phenomenon" for gals!! So, our enthu head n vice-head (Sabrina & Andrea)--> the two most act cute from the pic, one with the hand up while the other with the leg<-- suggested that we dress up and make up to make ourselves look cute.. indeed, we had fun (esp stickin on the fake lashes, haha.. had a hard time.. our kind n 'skillfull' Andrea helped us with it.. like a mama-san.. haha.. Dionne, Joanne n I felt like we cldnt open our eyes..) initially, I was "ee-year-ing" thru'out the make up session and they all ask mi to shut up.. haha.. forgive me, i jus cldnt stand the sight of the long fake lash coz i dun have much lashes.. haha.. but eventually, i thot it looks nice n reali had an enlarging effects.. all we did was worth it.. so enjoyable.. tink our lecturer, Mr Kevin Lim likes it quite alot.. he even requested for our photos to be posted in our academic blog..

The Ultimate 'Gamers'!!

(hey Andrea, mind ur gun k.. dun "zou huo" n shoot me hor.. i sue u ah..)

alright, dun tink we're crazy k thou we're close to it.. haha.. the above outfits were wad we thot of for our another presentation on online gaming.. to make the lesson more interesting, our same heads, Andrea & Sabrina, proposed that we wear clothes that resembles any game character.. so can u guess who r we?? haha.. ok, the first one in blue is Liyana, she rep a character from Final Fantasy dunno wad wizzard people i tink.. =p then followed by Sabrina, i tink u all shld noe who she is by her M hat.. she's pirated Mario.. haha.. then here comes the "big" boobs Andrea.. she is the tomb raider dunno wad.. i helped her in creating that "swell" infront of her 'chest'.. haha.. ok then is me!! guess who?! im street fighter Ryu!! haha.. n the next one, quite obvious oso, is Sailor Moon, acted by Jasmine.. the last is Rosalyn, a CS character.. finally, the most normal lookin guy in our pic is our lecturer.. Mr Kevin Lim.. tink he's fantasized by our ppt.. haha.. we got full grade for our ppt!! hooray!! haha.. thanks alot man.. =b

Finally, quickly "siam", i gonna 'chut' power.. "argh-duh-gan, orh-yew-gan" muahahahaha..
'kan zhao, jie zhao ba'..... cool huh.. so man.. *bluek* anyway, i feel i look quite shuai in black belt so im gona go for gradin till i get my black belt for TKD thou it may not be ez..

*special thanks to Alan Ho, my TKD ex-president for lending me his black belt.. haha..*
*also, special thanks to my bf for providing a listening ear.. hehe*

Have fun everyone.. exams coming!! arghhhhhh.. -poof-

its been a long time since im like this.....

24.03.07 is a bad day.. supposed to be a nice day.. wads wrong?! almost everything doesnt go right!! wads the matter?! i hate it..... it doesnt turn out the the way i meant.. =.....( dun ask mi wad happen.. im DOWN DOWn DOwn Down down.....

my day today..

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Yeah, 1 MONTH!! =>

Though I missed the actual date, on the 2nd, our 1st month anniversary arrived!! haha.. happy.. Though we din go out for movie etc, we still spent the day together.. He took part in TKD pattern team so we went to watch the competition.. As blogged in the previous post, his group won the GOLD award!! We were all very super duper happy!! haha.. I teared too.. I feel so proud of them.. they defeated NTU!! quite surprised oso.. haha.. Anyway, they did it!! WELL DONE & KEEP IT UP!! I oso took many photos of my qin ai de boyfriend.. he is so my darling!! haha.. =p

CONGRATS to team Ee Jang!!

Once again, CONGRATS to all the 4 champions of IVP'07 TKD Ee-Jang team!! Zhi Jie, Joanne, Sin Wee & Yang Theng, im So proud of u all!! WELL DONE!! WOW, U ALL DEFEATED NTU AND WON THE GOLD AWARD!! U ALL DESERVE A BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE AND HUGZ!! Thanks for bringing SIM TKD so much "rong yao".. haha.. all ur efforts, sweat, blood, etc were not wasted!! I noe u all train alot n practice long hours.. so, really, U ALL R THE BEST!! haha.. keep it up!! more golds to come ya..

Special mention of coach(es) and members: (from my pt of view, sorry if i miss out anyone)

Coaches, thanks for all the advice, help etc..

1) Jason (Ze Xiang)--> sorry about disbanding of chil jang, but im sure ur glad too.. haha =p
2) Alan (Guo Liang)
3) Joseph

Members, excellent job!!

1) Jack
2) Joanne
3) Sin Wee
4) Yang Theng

BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF U, WITHOUT EACH OF U WONDERFUL PEOPLE, THIS WOULD NT COME TRUE!!

IVP' 07 GOLD AWARDS!! YEAH!! HIP HIP HOORAY!!

lastly, let me THANK all the supporters too!! (Ee Lin , Alfian, and Joanne's two frens..
Though im not in the team, i part of SIM TKD ok.. haha.. so forgive me for sounding so excited!! heez..

Yesterday and today.....

Yesterday, my sis' bf went back to Melbourne to study.. We sent him off and my sis cried.. My bf went with mi to the air port too.. However, upon seeing my sis cryin in tt state, I felt down too.. After i got home, I begin to miss my bf very much.. I called him and met him near our neighbourhood.. I hugged him when I saw him.. People used to say laughter is the best cure, but I guess hugs are also one of the best ones.. It comforts me alot and makes me feel so safe.. I guess I really need him very much.. more than I expected.. I used to tink tt he needs me more than I do.. but now I tink its the other way round..

Anyway, today my bf did something tt surprised me.. I was very touched.. but 1st, I have to admit im someone who is easily contented.. haha.. Usually, I will walk to the bus stop further from my house to go to school.. however, i was running late today and decided to take another bus nearer to my and his house (we stay quite close to each other).. I told my bf i was walkin to tt bus stop when I called him.. I was tinkin to myself dunno will he come down and meet me or not.. hopin but not expectin, i sat at the bus stop quite sometime while waiting for the bus.. suddenly, a familiar face appeared in front of me!! i was so happy and quite surprised.. haha.. he brightened up my day.. i thanked him for giving me tt little surprised (so heart warming for me) and he said, as long as it is within his capability, he will try to make me happy.. I was touched again.. words cant expressed my feelings..

After being with him, I now realised and know y ppl wld wana cohabit.. coz i simply miss him no matter when n he is always on my mind.. just keep thinkin bout him.. he fills every part of my life.. long for his hug tt is always so comforting.....

Thank you my qin ai de boyfriend..Please be always by my side..

02.02.07, Friday, a day to remember.....

02.02.07, Friday, a special day to me and another person.. And that other person is, guess who?? my boyfriend.. hehe.. Ya, after 4 yrs of being single, I am now with someone, 我的他。。 I chose this colour for the font is also because of him.. He likes blue, so since dis is about him, I used blue (thou i dun really like it..) =p Actually I enjoyed being single.. It was fun to me.. Do all sorts of things that I like.. However, that doesnt mean that I dislike the situation Im in now.. Because I noe that there is now this someone in my life who will be able to share my happiness and tears, care for me, provide a shoulder to lean on, give me a hug when I need one, comfort my fears, make me laugh, give me support, be a good listener, tolerate all my nonsense..... I hope to stand by each other, have trust in each other, have lots of patience, be understanding, shower lots of tender loving care..... I wish "us" all the best and look forward to our "couple-hood".. 一起建立美好的r/s and 用很多爱来灌溉，让它茁壮成长。。从此刻起，我的生命将会不一样，它将会是多姿多彩的！！

。。感触良多。。

I am an emotional person.. I get affected quite easily.. I classify myself as a pessimist.. I still remember during my JC days, a school mate of mine, whom I do not know, passed away during a soccer match as he fell and hit the back of his head. I felt down and terrible for the whole day by the sad news.. And just today, I heard from the news that a Taiwan actress, Xu Wei Lun, had passed away after a serious accident.. Haiz.. I was quite upset about this too.. Moody.. 人好脆弱哦。。Serious.. Passed away just like that.. I wonder what if its me..... Will I be scare?? Will I 后悔 for the things which I have yet accomplish?? Will I have regrets?? I do have close encounter with an accident before and I think if I were knocked down on that day, I would not even know and realise Im dead at that moment.. I actually had plans for my funeral.. Sounds crazy I know but..... Anyway my plan is to present all my photos that I have taken, on ppt slides and show it to my guests.. I took quite many funny pics and I wonder if I were to show it during my funeral, will my guests be laughing or crying?? Im sure they dunno wad to do too.. haha.. Also, I want to play certain songs that I like.. It may not seem like a formal funeral.. but this would be the way I like it to be.. I like a phrase from a song（征服）, "如果你经过我的坟墓，你可以双手合十为我祝福”。。。。。

庄易琳 -10-

。。我的感想。。

I went to watch the movie "Happy Birthday" yesterday (26.01.07, fri).. It was a love story actually.. It shows differing views of a couple in a relationship.. The actress, though having feelings for the actor, wanted to be the actor's friend instead of lover because she feels that friends are forever but lovers do not last.. On the other hand, the actor, just like any human being, do not understand her thinking.. He just wanted to be wth her.. Because of this, they agreed to be very very good friends but not lovers.. So they each have their own life but they do keep in contact with each other, behaving just like a couple.. Due to the actor's charm, he has got alot of girlfriends.. However, the only person that he loves is the actress..

There was once the actress wanted to look for the actor and she went to his house.. However, upon reaching, the security guard told her that the actor has just went up to the apartment with a lady.. Hearing this, the actress was very sad and left the place.. The following scene showed that the lady was actually the actor's sister.. This make me reflect quite a little.. I used to always think what I hear and see are always RIGHT.. However, I came to realise not long ago that our eyes and ears do not always tell the truth.. At this point of time, my friend said to me, "see.. you girls sometimes just think too much....." But I feel.. under such situation, my first instinct is really to believe what I hear and get very affected by it.. I am not that calm to sit down and analyse..

People say love is complicated while others say its the people that makes it complicated.. Well.. I don't know about this.. As long as I believe in fate.. haha.. I like one of the song played in the movie and the lyrics goes like this..... “有多少爱可以重来？ 有多少人值得（愿意）等待。。”

I am someone who loves all these meaningful lyrics and phrases.. For example, "People tend to overlook things that are too close to them.." In other words, take the close ones for granted..... I do record meaningful phrases down whenever I see them as they make me feel.. I have lots of it which makes me quite philosophical sometimes.. hehe.. (a.k.a think too much.. well, can't help it =p) Also, I believe that NOT knowing everything is a bonus at times too because the more you know, may mean more worries etc..

Other than that, just to share (don't know how true it is,) I remembered seeing from an email or whatsoever that lavender is a very good cure for emotional wounds.. My friend once jokingly told me that if I were to end a relationship, I should give that person a stalk of lavender, hinting the end of a relationship.. Well, I have yet done anything like this but seems like a good idea.. haha..

就此停type,

庄易琳 (10)

哈哈！！

*My 6th Taekwondo grading*

Today I went for my 6th Taekwondo (TKD) grading.. It was quite fun.. I joined TKD in July, 2005. Currently, I am heading for blue belt.. A few more gradings to go to attain black belt.. I've made quite a few new friends and enjoyed myself.. And I make one of my TKD junior, who is older than me, to call me "Shi Jie".. haha.. Today after my grading, my dad came to fetch me.. I was very tired as I woke up quite early.. The moment I got up the car, I told my dad to drive off without checking out if my friend had got up the car.. haha.. And the funny thing is.. he has yet get up in the car as the door was locked.. haha.. So funny.. He was laughing outside while I was also laughing but inside the car.. Lucky we didnt really drive off.. I cant imagine if his feet gets run over by the car.. I just cant stop laughing when I get reminded of the incident.. haha.. So anyway, I had quite an enjoyable day today.. =>